April 8th, 2008
After the incident with my Mom’s WhatsApp message, and of course the run-in with my cousin’s fiancé at Tesco, I knew I needed a b-r-e-a-k! So, I was able to convince Javier to take some time off work, and we went away for a few days. We ditched any of our usual choices, and decided to go to Javier’s place of birth, Málaga, Spain, where we spent a magical week. We were able to de-stress, and talked honestly about the effect trying to conceive a baby was having on us. I was surprised to realize that my husband was getting just as worked up as I was, but relieved to know that we were fully in this 100%.
By the time we came back home, we were both refreshed, basking in the holiday afterglow, and ready to take on the world!!! As soon as we unpacked, I Skyped with my Mom, and we tearfully reconciled. Okay, I have to admit that I went absolutely cold turkey on the woman! After my curt reply to her message, I had refused to answer any of her calls, and had switched off my phone for the entire time we were away. That was very mean of me, I know, and it broke me seeing how much I’d hurt her. For the first time, I let her into what I had been going through the last few months, with this baby business and seeming infertility, and I could tell that she wanted to hop on a plane that very minute, if she could! But I felt better after talking to her. She has always known just how to calm my nerves. You can probably guess that I’m a Momma’s girl!
Well, that was yesterday, and first thing this morning, I called the hospital for the results of the blood test. Everything is within normal range…whatever that means!
A-n-y-w-a-y, I’ve got to tempt my toy boy into bed at some point today, as we missed our BD session yesterday, with travelling home all day. I also relaxed a bit too much, and didn’t bother temping while on holiday, so I’m not even sure of when exactly I ovulated. Ah well.
Did I mention that, in Spain, my darling husband actually put a pillow under my back, after BD. I was so touched! It’s the little things like that which make me realise he wants this just as much as I do!
Before he got home, I decided to use one of my ovulation sticks, just to check. I managed to hold my pee for 3 hours and did it at 4pm, but there was nothing. If my calculation serves me correctly, I probably already ovulated when on holiday. I also had very significant aches on my right side, and a tingly right boob…so maybe I ovulated from the right ovary? I guess that would make me about 2 or 3 DPO? Gosh…so frustrating!
April 10th, 2008
Yep, I’ve most surely already ovulated, as my boobs are quite tender, which (according to Dr. Google) would be the progesterone in the luteal phase (please, clap for me!!!). So we have carried on having sex in other positions now, and I go straight to the toilet afterwards if I need to.
I’m actually dreading going back to work in a few days!!! I work in Project Management, and, on a good day, I’m excellent at what I do. But for the last 18 months, I’ve had a contract with one of the big insurance companies and the atmosphere has been toxic, to say the least. I have a horrible, lazy boss, who takes pleasure in dumping as much as he can on me…and being the first to take all the glory when things go good, and pointing a finger of blame when things go bad. And because I have chosen to keep as far away from office gossip as possible, I have been branded a snob, and have been left very much on my own. It makes me miss my last job so much, the only consolation being that I am earning probably thrice what I did with my last one. So, I just have to chest it…abi?
April 11th, 2008
I can’t tell you how HAPPY I would be if I got a BFP this month! But you already probably can already tell! I have been trying to remember what symptoms I had last time, and the only thing that stands out was a cramping, sharp sensation, which made me think AF was coming, but it was slightly different. It lasted about 5 days. When I tested 1 day late…I just knew.
I wasn’t going to symptom spot this month, but I thought I better jot down how I’m feeling, so I can look back later, whichever way it goes. These are the main things I have noticed so far:
- I’ve had an awful amount of gas, and last night in bed I was in lots of agony with trapped wind. Luckily it eased off, and I fell asleep (note that I am not normally this gassy)
- I am quite hot while sleeping (normal at this stage)
- My boobs feel massive (normal at this stage)
I have been great up to today, but my ticker is annoying me with all the ’10 days to test…’ business! I am also secretly kidding myself that I ovulated earlier, when we were on holiday and having sex like rabbits. I really really hope so…but only time will tell.
The good news is my best friend is back in town tomorrow (yay!). She took up a teaching job in Scotland, but after 2 years of trying, the Scottish weather finally got to her, and she handed in her resignation. That, and the fact that she ‘couldn’t meet any good Naija men there’, as the guys there were all married, engaged, booed up, or players. Oooo-kay, Madam Solape! If you say so!!! Whatever her reason, I’m just happy to have her back in town, and I look forward to offloading to her tomorrow. I need to talk to someone…or I might just explode!
P.S (just in case you’re a TTC newbie
AF = Aunty Flo (or your period)
BD = Baby Dancing (or having sex…in plain English)
BFP = Big Fat Positive (Pregnancy Test result)
DPO = Days Post Ovulation
Catch up on Tayo’s Story here:
- Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
- Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops
- Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
- Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint…Don’t Look