Tayo’s Infertility Diary 65: Deny The Chemistry

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November 24, 2008

CD14 Peak

I have some good news! No, not a BFP (yet!!!) but a PEAK on my monitor! Unfortunately, it comes at not a good time at all. We couldn’t BD last night or this morning, as I have a pap smear (i couldn’t put it off as I have to have 1 a year, after the borderline results I got before, and they insist 14 days from last AF for the clearest results, which I guess is important as this has been going on for a few years now.) I guess I could do it when i’m back from the doctors, but she will have used a load of lube, I’m guessing? Oh well! If I am up to it, we may still try.

I also checked my CP last night and there was no EWCM. It also wasn’t as sqishy as the night before…which is pretty odd. I had ovulation pains all yesterday too. Plus Javier and I are speaking now, but we haven’t actually, really cleared the air.

 

November 25, 2008

Well, mission accomplished! I went for the smear, and hardly noticed it, as the doctor and I were chatting so much! Then I got home and stuck a load of Preseed up me, to help Javier’s swimmers and cancel out any lube the nurse used. Thankfully, we were able to BD! I stayed in bed for nearly an hour afterwards, and I feel better now. That is our only chance this month, as I go to work early tomorrow and he will be away until Monday when I get back.

So…things still not great but getting better. And my stomach is churning a bit about work tomorrow.

As if that was not enough, Ugo has resumed with his text-stalking. But the bobo is now bordering on delusional.

Don’t shut me out, Tayo. Don’t deny the chemistry we have. I know you also felt it when we were in Nigeria. Let’s talk about this!

I read that text probably 100 times, before deleting it. At first, I was infuriated by it. How dare he make such an assertion, when all I’d been trying to do was help. But after a while, fear replaced my anger as, truthfully, I had also felt the chemistry…however fleeting. But it was just a shadow of what it is I feel for Javier, my beloved husband whom I would not trade for all the Denzel Washingtons of this world! With a long hiss, I deleted the text message. There was no need replying it and feeding his delusion.

The only person I felt really sorry for was Solape…who had just had a baby with a man who no longer wanted to be with her. I’m struggling with what to do…to tell her or not. But knowing how volatile and erratic the girl can be, I have decided not to get myself involved at all! Lord knows I have enough problems of my own!

So it was pretty much the best day in the world. In the evening, I got an email from work, with them wanting me to write every incident down as evidence, so they can look at it. I’m going to tell them tomorrow that they can have what I have alread written, but I am fed up with it now. She is not getting away with it! I can’t work like this!

Anyway, I’m off to my Aunt’s place in Colchester for the week while Javier is away. I figured I might as well get a change of scenery, instead of dying of boredom and loneliness here!

On the up side, I couldn’t sleep last nigt as had a really bad pain in my left hip all night. I presume it was ovulation? My hip is still a bit sore. 1DPO for me tomorrow! YAY! Come on, Christmas BFP!

 

 

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Catch up on Tayo’s Story here:

  1. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
  2. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops 
  3. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
  4. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint…Don’t Look
  5. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 5: The Afterglow
  6. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 6: Irony
  7. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 7: Adulterer
  8. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 8: Catch 22
  9. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 9: Sister, Sister
  10. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 10: Goose Bumps 
  11. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 11: Gold Digger
  12. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 12: Peak
  13. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 13: Road Trip
  14. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 14: Emotional
  15. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 15: Awful Mess
  16. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 16: Pink Dresses
  17. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 17: My Love
  18. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 18: Summer
  19. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 19: Mindset
  20. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 20: High Street
  21. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 21: Bored, Fat, Sad
  22. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 22: Lessons Learnt
  23. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 23: The Dress versus the Tee-Shirt
  24. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 24: The Hen Night
  25. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 25: Minding my business
  26. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 26: Notice!
  27. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 27: Spotting & Shopping
  28. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 28: Messing About
  29. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 29: Wedding in Tuscany
  30. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 30: Lucky Girl
  31. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 31: The Rescue Plan
  32. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 32: Active Imagination
  33. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 33: Covered Bases
  34. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 34: Homecoming
  35. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 35: House Arrest
  36. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 36: Perfect Stranger
  37. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 37: Evil Genius
  38. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 38: Busy People
  39. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 39: Voltron Moves
  40. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 40: Swinging like a Pendulum 
  41. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 41: Back home
  42. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 42: Kinky Boo
  43. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 43: Divorce is not my portion!
  44. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 44: Get the behind me!
  45. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 45: Different Strokes
  46. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 46: How Far?
  47. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 47: The Pressure
  48. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 48: Yankee Virgin
  49. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 49: Sexy Mama
  50. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 50: The Big 40
  51. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 51: Wait & See
  52. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 52: Life is too short
  53. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 53: Work something out
  54. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 54: Hello Godmother
  55. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 55: A Beautiful Thing
  56. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 56: Raging Demands
  57. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 57: On the rebound
  58. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 58: Limbo
  59. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 59: Messed Up
  60. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 60: Penny Drop
  61. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 61: Robbed
  62. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 62: The other side of me
  63. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 63: Mama Drama
  64. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 64: Unfair

 

 

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