Tayo’s Infertility Diary 62: The Other Side Of Me!

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November 11th, 2008

AF showed properly yesterday evening, and I passed a massive blood clot. The last time I passed one that big was when i first started TTCM and ended up in hospital with a hormone imbalance.

Well, I’m okay today, just bleeding really heavy and have pain in my side. I managed to go back to work, even though I didn’t want to. I had hoped to be able to see Solape after work, but with the way I have been feeling, heading to Croydon was the very last thing on my mind, after work.

Anyone who can’t understand what I’m going through isn’t a real friend abeg!

 

November 13th, 2008

Cycle 10 since Miscarriage

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I was trying to be really positive and to will myself not to worrying about TTC, because hopefully we will move soon and have access to a new set of doctors. But on Monday I was really upset because of AF, and I had already been off work for 2 weeks and didn’t want to go back. I went back to work and it was okay. I went to yoga the day after, and I did nearly everything even though AF was still hanging around. Then I didn’t sleep too good, and felt like I was getting a chesty cough, so I decided to go to the chemist on the way to work, but decided to stop at the fuel station first.

I got back in the car and tried to start it, but it refused to start. I tried a few more times before it clicked! I’d put petrol in our new diesel car!  I called Javier, crying my eyes out because I knew it costs loads to fix and I was going to be late for work. Anyway, RAC took me to a garage and I had it fixed, so I arrived at work 3 hours late and very light of pocket. So now, I am not only tired but emotionally drained.

I called my boss and she said I had missed my appraisal! Then later, she came and found me and said that there had been more compaints about me! I read them and do you know what – this is my colleague putting them up to it! I am being bullied!!! My boss said she wanted me to think about a response to them and in the mean time my colleague will take my class. I was so upset, I packed all my stuff and drove home. My boss called me and I explained that I was very upset, I wasn’t thinking properly and that’s why I left without telling anyone! So I am seeing her 8:30am Friday.

I’m so upset, because this is supposed to be my dream job! It’s even making the last one seem like a walk in the park!

I couldn’t sleep last night. I had a pain on and off in the right side of abdomen. I was also extremely hot and am definitely coming down with something, as I feel a bit sick as well. But mainly I have so much going around my head. Javier and I have discussed it and I will be resigning tomorrow, using relocation as an excuse. I have to give 2 months notice so i don’t know what is going to happen as I cannot bear to work there anymore!

In between all this stress, the estate agent called and two couple are interested in our house – it has only been up less than a week. It kind of proved me right, considering how I have been positive from the start that we’ll sell it soon, and  everyone else has been all ‘Oh well, there are no buyers at the moment! Credit Crunch, etc. etc.!!!’

Anyways, one of the couples came this morning, and guess what! She was pregnant. More torment for me! They haven’t even put their house on the market yet though.

Anyways, it looks like we’ll be out of this house before we know it.

 

November 14th, 2008

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Today has gone so much better than I thought it would! My two managers actually had an idea that my colleague was behind all this, and so when I admitted that I thought it was her,  they reassured me and have been really supportive! Wow! I really needed that!

I now have to type up a huge report about everything and make a decision whether to go the formal or informal route first, with regard confronting her about her bullying.

I have just finished showing a couple around our house. They are about the same age as me, with a 2 year old. They really want it and they are ready to move. OMG, I can’t wait for our estate agent to call with feedback.

Meanwhile, I didn’t hand my resignation in, but now it looks like I may have to after all.

Anyways, that said, I’m off to Solape’s tomorrow. I’ll spend the whole day with her, to make up for my prolonged absence. And with the anger in me, if Ugo tries any funny business, he will see the other side of me!!!

 

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Catch up on Tayo’s Story here:

  1. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
  2. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops 
  3. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
  4. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint…Don’t Look
  5. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 5: The Afterglow
  6. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 6: Irony
  7. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 7: Adulterer
  8. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 8: Catch 22
  9. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 9: Sister, Sister
  10. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 10: Goose Bumps 
  11. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 11: Gold Digger
  12. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 12: Peak
  13. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 13: Road Trip
  14. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 14: Emotional
  15. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 15: Awful Mess
  16. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 16: Pink Dresses
  17. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 17: My Love
  18. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 18: Summer
  19. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 19: Mindset
  20. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 20: High Street
  21. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 21: Bored, Fat, Sad
  22. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 22: Lessons Learnt
  23. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 23: The Dress versus the Tee-Shirt
  24. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 24: The Hen Night
  25. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 25: Minding my business
  26. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 26: Notice!
  27. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 27: Spotting & Shopping
  28. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 28: Messing About
  29. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 29: Wedding in Tuscany
  30. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 30: Lucky Girl
  31. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 31: The Rescue Plan
  32. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 32: Active Imagination
  33. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 33: Covered Bases
  34. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 34: Homecoming
  35. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 35: House Arrest
  36. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 36: Perfect Stranger
  37. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 37: Evil Genius
  38. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 38: Busy People
  39. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 39: Voltron Moves
  40. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 40: Swinging like a Pendulum 
  41. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 41: Back home
  42. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 42: Kinky Boo
  43. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 43: Divorce is not my portion!
  44. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 44: Get the behind me!
  45. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 45: Different Strokes
  46. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 46: How Far?
  47. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 47: The Pressure
  48. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 48: Yankee Virgin
  49. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 49: Sexy Mama
  50. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 50: The Big 40
  51. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 51: Wait & See
  52. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 52: Life is too short
  53. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 53: Work something out
  54. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 54: Hello Godmother
  55. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 55: A Beautiful Thing
  56. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 56: Raging Demands
  57. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 57: On the rebound
  58. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 58: Limbo
  59. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 59: Messed Up
  60. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 60: Penny Drop
  61. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 61: Robbed

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11 COMMENTS

  1. This so relates to me. ‘Ve been trying for almost ten cycles now. As at last week, I thought I will have a BFP today with all the symptoms all over me. See waist pain and a little pain at my right abdomen for one week only for AF to appear today. Anyways, I’m still keeping my hopes high like Tayo. I’m so encouraged by your articles Tayo. Thanks a mill…

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    • Hi Chioma, stay hopeful, your BFP will surely come. Sending loads of babydust to you. If you will like to be added to our tickers, you can join our community, join the TTC group, drop your LMP and that’s it.?

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