Tayo’s Infertility Diary 61: Robbed

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November 4th, 2008

CD23, 8DPO

I couldn’t get to sleep last night until almost 2am. I have so much on my mind:

  • I want my  :bfp: RIGHT NOW, and I’m getting impatient
  • I can’t stop thinking about work – not happy with 70% of it
  • We have got to sell the house
  • We have got to find a new house
  • I have to pack my bags, as I’m following Javier tomorrow, as he travels for work

And I have probably forgotten some other things as well.

As far as symptoms go, I still very tender boobs. Fingers crossed!

 

November 5th, 2008

CD24, 9DPO

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I’m on on knicker and boob watch. I need my boobs to stay sore and NO SPOTTING!!!

I just can’t stress it enough!

Right now, I’m in the hotel with Jav. It was so nice not having to drive all the way down here, like I’ve done the last few times.

I had to call Solape as soon as we got here, to apologise for being MIA. She sounded a bit off…not sure if it was just motherhood stress or she’s pissed at me. I had to explain why I have to follow Javier around, because me too I want a baby na! I didn’t tell her that I’m actually not ovulating now, but it was good to use it as an excuse. She has her baby…let me get my own.

But the real truth is that I’m not keen on seeing Ugo again. I haven’t replied any of his text messages, asking me for lunch. I don’t understand what his plan is! When we used to meet up before, it was for one thing and one thing only…Solape! Now that they are together, and a family for that matter, I wonder why he still wants to hang out with me. Abeg I no dey for that one oh!

Anyhoo…today’s symptoms. Boobs are still tender, CM is still creamy (not necessary lots of it but still creamy), I have a bit of indigestion but could be because I was up early and ate in airport, and I have slight tightness in abdomen, slightly to left of centre (told Javier it feels like AF may come early, just to prepare him for the possibility).

Oh God, please let me be pregnant!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I’m just so worried. I went swimming earlier today, but I couldn’t swim properly as I could feel my back aching and my abdomen is tender, and so i was panicking. Backache is an AF sign for me!

At least there has been no spotting, but I could be 8DPO if I ovulated on my normal day, and not a day earlier as I thought.

Oh God, I don’t know – I need patience!

I’ve got no panty liners or tests with me. I’m leaving it all up to fate.

 

November 6th, 2008

CD25, 10DPO

No peak on the monitor – now there’s a surprise!

Fingers crossed for today. I’m at the one day at a time stage now!

Oh, and my boobs are still sore.

 

November 7th, 2008

Well, I started spotting last night…

I wish it helped this way, but I actually feel robbed. My 2WW is short, so I don’t get to hope for long and I know it’s over days before AF arrives properly, and I don’t get to test as it’s always too early.

I’m obviously feeling very miserable, and it’s unlikely I’m going to enjoy the rest of this blasted trip. But I have to try…for Javier’s sake. I’m going for a meal tonight, with Javier and his best friend, who happens to live here in Newcastle. The fact that he had a gorgeous 3yr old boy, and by accident I might add, doesn’t help matters at all.

 

November 8th, 2008

Well…AF not quite here, but might as well be as spotting is quite bad. I think CD1 will be tomorrow.

I still want a BFP for Christmas more than anything. Only 1 shot left this year…

 

November 10th, 2008

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AF is definitely on her way. I guess the spotting decided to start nice and early this cycle. In any case, I feel like she is going to arrive any second,

Well, back to work tomorrow and I am not wanting to go, and seeing as how it is going to be CD1, and I am going to feel like crap! I also have to see Solape in the next few days, especially if I’m still interested in our friendship. There is only so much of a long rope she can possibly give me.

The new cycle needs to just start already!

 

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Catch up on Tayo’s Story here:

  1. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
  2. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops 
  3. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
  4. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint…Don’t Look
  5. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 5: The Afterglow
  6. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 6: Irony
  7. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 7: Adulterer
  8. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 8: Catch 22
  9. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 9: Sister, Sister
  10. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 10: Goose Bumps 
  11. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 11: Gold Digger
  12. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 12: Peak
  13. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 13: Road Trip
  14. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 14: Emotional
  15. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 15: Awful Mess
  16. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 16: Pink Dresses
  17. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 17: My Love
  18. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 18: Summer
  19. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 19: Mindset
  20. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 20: High Street
  21. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 21: Bored, Fat, Sad
  22. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 22: Lessons Learnt
  23. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 23: The Dress versus the Tee-Shirt
  24. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 24: The Hen Night
  25. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 25: Minding my business
  26. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 26: Notice!
  27. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 27: Spotting & Shopping
  28. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 28: Messing About
  29. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 29: Wedding in Tuscany
  30. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 30: Lucky Girl
  31. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 31: The Rescue Plan
  32. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 32: Active Imagination
  33. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 33: Covered Bases
  34. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 34: Homecoming
  35. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 35: House Arrest
  36. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 36: Perfect Stranger
  37. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 37: Evil Genius
  38. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 38: Busy People
  39. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 39: Voltron Moves
  40. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 40: Swinging like a Pendulum 
  41. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 41: Back home
  42. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 42: Kinky Boo
  43. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 43: Divorce is not my portion!
  44. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 44: Get the behind me!
  45. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 45: Different Strokes
  46. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 46: How Far?
  47. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 47: The Pressure
  48. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 48: Yankee Virgin
  49. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 49: Sexy Mama
  50. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 50: The Big 40
  51. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 51: Wait & See
  52. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 52: Life is too short
  53. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 53: Work something out
  54. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 54: Hello Godmother
  55. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 55: A Beautiful Thing
  56. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 56: Raging Demands
  57. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 57: On the rebound
  58. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 58: Limbo
  59. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 59: Messed Up
  60. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 60: Penny Drop

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