Tayo’s Infertility Diary 60: Penny Drop

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November 1st, 2008

CD 20, 5 DPO

I gave in to temptation and drove to Newcastle to be with Javier for two nights. That strange phone call of his at 2am in the morning got my imagination going into overdrive. What if he was with another woman?!! I wasn’t about to find out, so off I went to join him. Turns out I was worrying for nothing, but at least I got to spend some time with my boo!

Right now, I am 5DPO but I feel further along…if that is possible? My boobs aren’t sore but feel big, and they are hot and I’ve been hot ‘down there’ too.

Now, because the monitor messed up, I have to POAS until 11 DPO, and I was wondering if the sticks would show up a BFP at all? Especially as they have proven faulty. But I can’t afford to be doubtful now. They just have to work somehow!

 

November 2nd, 2008

CD 21, 6 DPO

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This cycle is weird! It’s like what I used to get months ago, making me think that the last few months there may have been a problem. I have quite tender boobs and I’m only 6 DPO, so maybe I have lots of good hormones this cycle. I had a look back at the last few cycles, and I realised that:

  • last month I mentioned my boobs were a bit sore at 10 DPO, and I had twinges on sides of my abdomen
  • In August, I only mentioned a blue vein on my boob at 10 DPO, but I had a few twinges
  • In July, I didn’t note anything down. Same with June
  • In May, the side of my boobs were sore at 9 DPO, and I had a few twinges
  • In April, I had shooting pains in my boob from 4 DPO, with more twinges

I’m not going any further back!

Anyway, I hope it’s all good this time. This cycle, I have had twinges during the follicular phase of my cycle, while I seem to have them in the LP normally.

I just want my BFP before Christmas! Is that too much to ask?!

 

November 3rd, 2008

CD 22, 7 DPO (no PEAK on monitor yet!!!)

I have entered the 1ww – yay!

I slept terribly again last night. We keep going to bed late and getting up late, and normally it is the opposite for us. I’m okay during the day, but when I wake up I feel terrible. Also, these hormones better lead to a BFP, as my boobs feel worse today and I’m only 7 DPO! Well, I suppose that this is the day that your hormones peak, hence why you have CD 21 blood test today. Normally, the few days leading up to AF, I sleep badly with bad dreams (like currently), but i also have night sweats.

Anyways, the estate agent is coming to take photos and measure up our house today and it could be on the market as early as tomorrow. She reckons we probably won’t get any viewings until January, but we don’t care as we live in hope. It’s all getting real to me now!

Another thing that’s getting real is this relationship between Folly, my brother, and Natalia, my sister-in-law. If I’m to be honest, I thought they had just an extended summer fling. But now, almost two weeks since Folly went back to the States, they still appear to be waxing strong. Yes, one can’t measure the strength of a relationship from phone calls and Skype, but it’s obvious that the intensity is building, especially with Natalia making plans to return to America for Christmas. For her to be contemplating spending Christmas away from her kids, this is very serious indeed!

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But what truly made the penny drop for me was when Folly told me he is contemplating returning to his job at NASA. After having quit the job following his nasty divorce, where he had lost pretty much everything he’d ever worked for, my brother’s mantra had changed to a live and let live, and eat while you are still alive! He hadn’t thought twice about blowing through his savings, travelling all over the world. But all of a sudden, his thinking has changed.

“I need to give my children security,” is what my brother had given as his reason for deciding to return to work.

“Children?!” I had echoed, as, to the best of my knowledge, there was only his 8 year old daughter, Daisy, in the picture.

“I’m obviously going to remarry one day, and have more!” he had chuckled, but I had sensed the gravitas in that joke. I could tell that he is actually contemplating settling down again, something he swore he would never do again.

And there’s no guessing who might have changed his mind!

I’m not sure how I feel about my brother and sister-in-law entering a committed relationship. A fling was one thing, but marriage?

Naaaah! I’m not sure about that!

 

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Photo Credits

  1. http://images.clipartpanda.com
  2. http://www.lifehack.org

 

Catch up on Tayo’s Story here:

  1. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
  2. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops 
  3. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
  4. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint…Don’t Look
  5. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 5: The Afterglow
  6. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 6: Irony
  7. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 7: Adulterer
  8. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 8: Catch 22
  9. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 9: Sister, Sister
  10. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 10: Goose Bumps 
  11. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 11: Gold Digger
  12. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 12: Peak
  13. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 13: Road Trip
  14. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 14: Emotional
  15. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 15: Awful Mess
  16. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 16: Pink Dresses
  17. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 17: My Love
  18. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 18: Summer
  19. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 19: Mindset
  20. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 20: High Street
  21. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 21: Bored, Fat, Sad
  22. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 22: Lessons Learnt
  23. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 23: The Dress versus the Tee-Shirt
  24. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 24: The Hen Night
  25. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 25: Minding my business
  26. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 26: Notice!
  27. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 27: Spotting & Shopping
  28. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 28: Messing About
  29. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 29: Wedding in Tuscany
  30. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 30: Lucky Girl
  31. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 31: The Rescue Plan
  32. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 32: Active Imagination
  33. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 33: Covered Bases
  34. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 34: Homecoming
  35. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 35: House Arrest
  36. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 36: Perfect Stranger
  37. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 37: Evil Genius
  38. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 38: Busy People
  39. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 39: Voltron Moves
  40. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 40: Swinging like a Pendulum 
  41. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 41: Back home
  42. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 42: Kinky Boo
  43. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 43: Divorce is not my portion!
  44. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 44: Get the behind me!
  45. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 45: Different Strokes
  46. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 46: How Far?
  47. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 47: The Pressure
  48. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 48: Yankee Virgin
  49. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 49: Sexy Mama
  50. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 50: The Big 40
  51. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 51: Wait & See
  52. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 52: Life is too short
  53. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 53: Work something out
  54. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 54: Hello Godmother
  55. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 55: A Beautiful Thing
  56. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 56: Raging Demands
  57. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 57: On the rebound
  58. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 58: Limbo
  59. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 59: Messed Up

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