Morayo’s Mountain 51: We Got It!!!


January 7th, 2013

I just got an e-mail to say that we won’t get a decision on the loan for another two or three weeks.

Seriously, I can’t do this any more. I’m having a complete meltdown at work.

I told Babs to cancel the application. I would rather give up now than spend any more of my life in limbo.

That will be 12 months of being tossed around and delayed!!!

I’ve had enough now.

Trust Babs to be difficult. He wants to try and find someone higher up to speak to, but we had a massive fight about it because I want to quit altogether. IVF is horrible enough without all this shit on top of it.


January 8th, 2013


Well, he managed to convince me.

We’ve waited this long. 3 more weeks won’t hurt.

But if I don’t have answers by the end of the month, I am going to seriously lose my mind!


January 9th, 2013

Well, Babs has called and complained to someone, and now they’ve said they can get a decision made by Friday. I’ll believe it when I see it. Somehow, I’m sure it’s a ‘No’ now, because of all the wahala we’ve caused.

Na wa! Can’t we just catch a break!

I couldn’t even concentrate at work. I’m a total bag of nerves!


January 10th, 2013


And not only have they approved our loan, we will be funded for a second cycle, if the first is unsuccessful!!! I can’s stop shaking! I am crying and laughing…all at the same time!.

Oh my goodness! It’s not like me to be this lucky! Thank You Jesus!

I’m having to remind myself this is just the first step in a really long process that probably won’t work, but I can’t help but feel like I need to start planning my nursery and buying some maternity clothes!!! LOL!


January 11th, 2013


I’ve been flicking through my IVF books in preparation. There’s so much I’d forgotten about, but at the same time I remember ever single second of the first round.

And not good memories too.

It’s getting real now…

That said, I’m so grateful! Being told we’d got the funding for two was such a shock. We didn’t apply for two, didn’t ask for two, didn’t even know two was an option.

It really takes the pressure off the first round, knowing we can try again soon!


January 16th, 2013

AF today. Bang on time as always.

Ah whatever! At least we can look forward to starting our cycle soon!


January 18th, 2013


I had a problem with my contact lenses this morning, so I’ve come to work in my glasses and no one has said anything. It has left me wondering if they are really just awful people, or if everyone has adopted the “if you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all” approach, or if I am in fact invisible!!!!

Anyways, counting down…


January 29th, 2013

Would you believe we still haven’t gotten a start date yet?! This is taking way too long!

In other news, a girl at work left today to start her maternity leave. Her baby is due on Saturday. She was still at school, and hadn’t even yet met her husband when I’d started TTC. LOL! Things like that are enough to discourage one!

But we shall keep forging ahead!


My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.


Catch up on Morayo’s story here:

  1. Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
  2. Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
  3. Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
  4. Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
  5. Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
  6. Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
  7. Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
  8. Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
  9. Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
  10. Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
  11. Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
  12. Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
  13. Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody
  14. Morayo’s Mountain 14: Confused and Confuddled
  15. Morayo’s Mountain 15: Another Two Week Wait
  16. Morayo’s Mountain 16: One More Cycle
  17. Morayo’s Mountain 17: Back to the Doctors
  18. Morayo’s Mountain 18: We’re going to beat this thing
  19. Morayo’s Mountain 19: Live to fight another day
  20. Morayo’s Mountain 20: Nightmare Mother-In-Law
  21. Morayo’s Mountain 21: Baby Dreaming
  22. Morayo’s Mountain 22: Those Swimmers are Mine
  23. Morayo’s Mountain 23: What ever happened to Karma?
  24. Morayo’s Mountain 24: The Year of the BFP
  25. Morayo’s Mountain 25: Not ready for motherhood after all!
  26. Morayo’s Mountain 26: Happy Little Bunny
  27. Morayo’s Mountain 27: Mothers Day Blues
  28. Morayo’s Mountain 28: It only takes one
  29. Morayo’s Mountain 29: Of Sperm…and Wine
  30. Morayo’s Mountain 30: Up and Down
  31. Morayo’s Mountain 31: Evil Witch
  32. Morayo’s Mountain 32: The Angels are telling me something
  33. Morayo’s Mountain 33: Start Date
  34. Morayo’s Mountain 34: I can’t do this
  35. Morayo’s Mountain 35: Seriously?!
  36. Morayo’s Mountain 36: Panic Attack
  37. Morayo’s Mountain 37: No attachment
  38. Morayo’s Mountain 38: Rollercoaster 
  39. Morayo’s Mountain 39: Broken
  40. Morayo’s Mountain 40: Holiday BFP
  41. Morayo’s Mountain 41: I need a hug
  42. Morayo’s Mountain 42: Light at the end of the tunnel
  43. Morayo’s Mountain 43: I don’t need Anti-Depressants
  44. Morayo’s Mountain 44: A New Year
  45. Morayo’s Mountain 45: I just have a feeling
  46. Morayo’s Mountain 46: Seven Years
  47. Morayo’s Mountain 47: We can’t afford it on our own
  48. Morayo’s Mountain 48: The Loan
  49. Morayo’s Mountain 49: Another Christmas
  50. Morayo’s Mountain 50: Defeat






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