Morayo’s Mountain 49: Another Christmas

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November 30th, 2012

It’s been a very rough few days…

I’ve had a few good cries. That didn’t really help. Maybe tomorrow, the cloud of doom will lift.

Maybe…

On the plus side, I’ve ordered mum and dads album and also my Secret Santa present. I’ll be glad when they’ve arrived so I know that’s sorted at least…

 

December 2nd, 2012

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I still feel a bit blue. I think it is Christmas looming that is doing it. I just don’t want a grown up Christmas. I want the magical one that you can only get with a child who believes in Santa. I want noise and mess and craziness.

I guess I’m just tired of not having any baby to share the holiday with. It’s been seven Christmases…but nothing…

 

December 3rd, 2012

I had a cry with my manager today. She’s going through fertility problems herself, so she understands how hard Christmas is.

So the plan of action is to accept that it is okay to not be okay, that I won’t be the life and soul of the party this year like I normally am, that I will make the most of the grown up Christmas and all those parts of it that parents don’t get to enjoy, and to do whatever it is I have to do to get through this.

Who knows, maybe we’ll get some news about the loan soon and I’ll perk up again.

 

December 4th, 2012

I received an e-mail from the loan, and I got all excited until I read that it was just confirming that they have all the information they need and will be passing it to their decisions committee, and they will be in touch when they’ve considered everything.

Hiss! Another long wait!

I had a long lunch with my friend on maternity leave and her baby, who is just soooooo cute.  I thought it would be hard for me, but not at all. It actually gave me a much needed ray of sunshine. I can’t wait to have mine!

 

December 10th, 2012

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I put up my Christmas decorations on Saturday, so it pretty much made my weekend!

My inner child comes out when it comes to my tree!!! I have enough lights on it that it are visible from outer space! So much tinsel you can’t see the branches, and so many decorations there is a danger the weight of the tree could crash through the floor! Oh, and it has every possible colour on it. No tasteful decorated tree in matching colours for me! LOL!

I’ve had a great weekend. My The house is decorated, I’ve actually almost finished my Christmas shopping, and my sister came for Sunday lunch and stayed for 7 hours!! I had an absolute blast!

Back to work today though. I wish I didn’t have to work in December, so I could hibernate like a bear.

Still no news on the loan. I think it will be this week or next week.

Fingers crossed.

 

December 15th, 2012

I had a great time yesterday, at our Team Christmas lunch (no party this year). It was pretty merry and I managed not to get too drunk..

For some inexplicable reason, I stopped at Shoprite Surulere on the way home, and ended buying a whole lot of things I don’t even need. I’m going to blame it on the alcohol! Talk about a waste of money.

But on the plus side, I have no hangover to grapple with, and I appear to have finished all my Christmas shopping now! So maybe the impulse buying had its benefits.

Today is dedicated mainly to housework and present wrapping. Babs is going out for a couple of hours this afternoon, so I’m going to just watch all the Christmas specials on DSTV, and enjoy a glass of Baileys while I wrap.

I have to get my kicks from somewhere, abi?

 

My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.

 

Catch up on Morayo’s story here:

  1. Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
  2. Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
  3. Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
  4. Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
  5. Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
  6. Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
  7. Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
  8. Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
  9. Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
  10. Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
  11. Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
  12. Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
  13. Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody
  14. Morayo’s Mountain 14: Confused and Confuddled
  15. Morayo’s Mountain 15: Another Two Week Wait
  16. Morayo’s Mountain 16: One More Cycle
  17. Morayo’s Mountain 17: Back to the Doctors
  18. Morayo’s Mountain 18: We’re going to beat this thing
  19. Morayo’s Mountain 19: Live to fight another day
  20. Morayo’s Mountain 20: Nightmare Mother-In-Law
  21. Morayo’s Mountain 21: Baby Dreaming
  22. Morayo’s Mountain 22: Those Swimmers are Mine
  23. Morayo’s Mountain 23: What ever happened to Karma?
  24. Morayo’s Mountain 24: The Year of the BFP
  25. Morayo’s Mountain 25: Not ready for motherhood after all!
  26. Morayo’s Mountain 26: Happy Little Bunny
  27. Morayo’s Mountain 27: Mothers Day Blues
  28. Morayo’s Mountain 28: It only takes one
  29. Morayo’s Mountain 29: Of Sperm…and Wine
  30. Morayo’s Mountain 30: Up and Down
  31. Morayo’s Mountain 31: Evil Witch
  32. Morayo’s Mountain 32: The Angels are telling me something
  33. Morayo’s Mountain 33: Start Date
  34. Morayo’s Mountain 34: I can’t do this
  35. Morayo’s Mountain 35: Seriously?!
  36. Morayo’s Mountain 36: Panic Attack
  37. Morayo’s Mountain 37: No attachment
  38. Morayo’s Mountain 38: Rollercoaster 
  39. Morayo’s Mountain 39: Broken
  40. Morayo’s Mountain 40: Holiday BFP
  41. Morayo’s Mountain 41: I need a hug
  42. Morayo’s Mountain 42: Light at the end of the tunnel
  43. Morayo’s Mountain 43: I don’t need Anti-Depressants
  44. Morayo’s Mountain 44: A New Year
  45. Morayo’s Mountain 45: I just have a feeling
  46. Morayo’s Mountain 46: Seven Years
  47. Morayo’s Mountain 47: We can’t afford it on our own
  48. Morayo’s Mountain 48: The Loan

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