Morayo’s Mountain 36: Panic Attack

August 9, 2018

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August 22^nd, 2010

AF is here. Bang on time. I called the clinic to let them know, so hopefully they will give me a call in the morning to start the pill.

OMG, this is it. It is finally starting.

From what the doctor said the last time, I should be on BCP for between 18 and 40 days, with our egg collection in the week beginning 18^th October.

I have to call with the date of my first period, between 10^th August and 3^rd September. I’m hoping that they will give me more information tomorrow when they call me.

August 24^th, 2010

Well I’ve started the pill. I have no side effects and I’m not turning into a hormonal monster, so that’s a good thing. Or perhaps after only a day, it’s too early to say that. Lol! Who even knows!

I stay on the pill until 20^th September and then start down regging on the 21^st. I’ve got my first scan on 6^th October, so it’s all moving forward!!

This is it. We are underway!!!

August 25^th, 2010

Day two, and I feel sick and have a headache. I don’t want to play anymore!!!

August 27^th, 2010

The BCP is still making me feel really sick but it is getting better, so hopefully that will go altogether soon. The good thing is that sex is now back to being just for fun…so no more hassling with those awful insemination cups!

My ‘friend’ who thought it would give me a boost to know about her pregnancy sent me a long e-mail, complaining about how awful she feels. Seriously, I do wonder about some people!!! I didn’t even bother replying.

August 29^th, 2010

I’ve stopped feeling sick now!!

Besides that, not much else to report. I get my IVF drugs on the 6^th of September, so counting down to that.

Oh, side bar. Everyone on Facebook is either talking babies, pregnancy or christenings. I’m considering deleting my account…

September 2^nd, 2010

I’m not liking the pill at all! I really thought I would be okay, as it is the same one I was on for years without a problem. But I am feeling so hormonal and the nausea still hasn’t gone completely.

My former line manager came in with her baby today. They were over the other side of the office and I didn’t go over. I just couldn’t cope with having a cute baby around while I feel so hormonal. Think she took the hint? Noooo!! She bloody well came over shoved the baby under my nose and asked me how I was. I just mumbled something, before my new line manager dragged her away (he knows what is going on).

So I did the only thing I could do. I bought cake on the way home!

September 4^th, 2010

I can’t believe how quick the time on the pill is going. I really thought it would drag.

IVF drugs arrive on Monday, so I’ve cleaned out the fridge all ready for the stuff that goes in there.

I’ve got two weeks off work now. I can’t wait. I’m really ready for some time off. I haven’t had a break since I was off in May, and it feels like forever ago!! Looking forward to some r&r…if I can manage it!

September 6^th, 2010

I’ve been really weepy all day today. Not sure why. I was looking forward to getting the drugs and being that bit closer to getting my BFP…but when they arrived, it was all too much for me…

I had a major panic at all the needles. There seem far too many!!

But I’m feeling a bit better now. Babs has been fantastic, giving me lots of cuddles and reassurance.

Anyways, it was the first day of my two-week holiday, and it has done nothing but rain cats and dogs!

September 12^th, 2010

We had a great weekend. My niece and nephew came to stay because my brother’s nanny let them down (again), but this time, they were absolute angels!!! The last couple of times they have been round they have put me off the idea of parenthood, but they were good as gold this time.

I’m feeling like I just want to get started now. Only 9 days. I don’t know where the time has gone.

Let’s get this thing started!

My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.

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