Morayo’s Mountain 24: The Year of the BFP

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December 19th, 2009

It’s the day after the office party, and I’m doing okay!!

For one thing, I found out that my Line Manager isn’t only being an insensitive cow to me but to everyone…including someone who has had a stillborn, and someone who has had two miscarriages. She did say to me at the bar, when I was ordering the biggest jug of margarita, that she was jealous. So I just said ‘Ditto! Wanna trade places?’. A bit later though, she thought she would tell me all about her baby, and how big it will be, and how it has organs now. Fortunately, my friends rescued me and pulled me away!

I even had a chat with the mum of the four week old, and asked to see a picture! I was quite proud of myself!!!

I struggled a bit at one point, chatting with someone else on maternity leave, when she said she can’t wait to get back to work because she isn’t at all maternal, and doesn’t really want to be at home with a baby.

But apart from those few things, it went okay yesterday. I remember hugging everyone for some reason, so hopefully I don’t have too much apologizing to do on Monday!!!

I’m feeling all festive now. I spent the day wrapping all the Christmas presents. For the first time in a long while, I can’t wait for Christmas.

On the BBT, I’m not sure what is going on with my temperature chart!! I have never had one that looks anything like this! I’m sure I will have enough opportunity to drink myself crazy this Christmas, as I really don’t think I’m pregnant. Yesterday’s drinking spree would have drowned anyone wandering around inside me!!

 

December 21st, 2009

I’ve got a stinking cold! It’s so frustrating. Soooooo much needs doing, and I have no energy or desire to do anything. It has to be the worst time of the year to be sick!

 

December 22nd, 2009

10 DPO, and a temp drop, but I am thinking that is probably due to the Paracetamol based stuff I have been taking for my cold??

I wasn’t going to take a test until Christmas day, but I’m not sure I can wait though. I have got every symptom under the sun. Well, actually…maybe not. I have sore boobs and non-stop wind (probably caused by the non stop eating!!). When should I test???

 

December 23rd, 2009

Well, I guessed as much. BFN!

Merry Christmas!

 

December 27th, 2009

Just when my temps stay up, and the witch stays away long enough for me to think that a BFN might be a faulty test, then the spotting and cramps start!

I am refusing to let it get me down. There is far too much alcohol in the house for that!! So I have decided to be positive. 2010 just has to be the year of the BFP for me…and there are only 4 more sleeps till it is here!

 

December 28th, 2009

Well, AF is being a bitch from hell this month. I kept waking up with cramps during the night. But I’m feeling surprisingly positive. New Year, new hope! Something good has to happen in 2010, doesn’t it?!!!

 

January 1st, 2010

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Its a New Year, a new decade, and it is filled with hope and possibility!! Woo hoo!!!

 

January 4th, 2010

Well, my positivity and optimism know no bounds today!!!

I got to work this morning (never an easy task, when you are used to laying in bed until daylight, and easing yourself into the day during the holidays), when my Line Manager was there with her scan pictures.

I made myself go over, and pretend to be interested and had a look at them (bloody hell, how many can one woman have?!). I even managed to smile all through it, asked a couple of questions, and didn’t let it get me down. I think I even surprised her that I’d made the effort to go over.

I actually really did not mind hearing about it too much, and didn’t let it drag me down all day as it would have last year!!!

I’m so impressed with myself…so much so that I’m going to reward myself. Wine or chocolate?!?!! I can’t decide….

 

My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.

 

  1. Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
  2. Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
  3. Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
  4. Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
  5. Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
  6. Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
  7. Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
  8. Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
  9. Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
  10. Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
  11. Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
  12. Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
  13. Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody
  14. Morayo’s Mountain 14: Confused and Confuddled
  15. Morayo’s Mountain 15: Another Two Week Wait
  16. Morayo’s Mountain 16: One More Cycle
  17. Morayo’s Mountain 17: Back to the Doctors
  18. Morayo’s Mountain 18: We’re going to beat this thing
  19. Morayo’s Mountain 19: Live to fight another day
  20. Morayo’s Mountain 20: Nightmare Mother-In-Law
  21. Morayo’s Mountain 21: Baby Dreaming
  22. Morayo’s Mountain 22: Those Swimmers are Mine
  23. Morayo’s Mountain 23: What ever happened to Karma?

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