November 23rd, 2009
So…about my dream yesterday….I found this in an online dream dictionary
To dream that you are climbing a hill, signifies your struggles in achieving a goal.
To see a baby crib in your dream, symbolizes your desire for a family or longing for a baby. If the baby carriage is empty, then it indicates sadness or an unfulfilled goal.
To hear the cheerful laughter of children, denotes splendid joy and vital health.
So, a lot of struggling and sadness, but ending in joy???
Well, I’ll take it, I guess.
November 24th, 2009
I’m home alone, and bored because Babs had to travel for work today.
I really want to go test! I know it is too early, but feel an urge too POAS.
I wish I had someone to talk some sense into me!!!
November 25th, 2009
Well, I tested last night, and it was a BFN. Good for me, abi?
No more testing today. I was tempted this morning, when I saw a rise in my BBT temp, but think that was probably due to the night spent tossing and turning because I can’t sleep when Babs is away.
I might test on Friday morning, if my temps still look pretty. I have been invited for a friend’s birthday party on Friday, and if it is a BFN, then I can drink and drown my sorrows in style!!
But today, I have got twinges and pains…lower down than normal AF aches, and not actually achy pains, if that makes any sense.
I wonder if that’s a symptom?!
November 26th, 2009
I think I can feel the witch on her way! Not surprised though, considering we only inseminated once!!
November 27th, 2009
I had a great night’s sleep, and my temps are back up again this morning. What’s that all about?! I didn’t test though. I figured what I don’t know can’t hurt me, and I really want to drink at the birthday party tonight.
November 28th, 2009
Oooh, why oh why do we do this to ourselves???!!!
I had a fantastic time last night. I drank far too much. Ate too much. Then drank even more.
The party was in the Penthouse of a luxury apartment in Victoria Island, so there were amazing views of the Atlantic. There was a massive three course meal, and the DJ was on fire!
I think I must have danced a lot as well, because my feet are killing me today.
November 30th, 2009
Blurgh! I had a massive temperature dip this morning. I reckon the spotting will start at some point today.
December 9th, 2009
I had to stay away from this diary, as I desperately needed to clear my head, after AF arrived.
We have had a call from the hospital, and Babs is going in on Friday, to get checked out. I have no idea what that means. Hopefully, they don’t want a sample on Friday, because I ovulate on Saturday, so those swimmers are mine!!! They don’t want to see me just yet, they want to check him out first. I have no idea if this is normal or not.
I had an assessment at work on Monday. My Line Manager asked if I was okay, because she noticed “Sometimes, you sit at your desk, so quiet, and looking so sad”, so I told her nearly everything. She was really sweet about it, and said she will fight for me to get paid leave for any treatment we need.
Well, at least, that’s one good thing!
December 10th, 2009
Not sure what to make of today!
I went into work this morning, and there was this long e-mail from a girl in another team, who I only know in passing, saying she had heard we were having problems trying for a baby, and telling me all about how her 8 month bump was conceived through IVF. Talk about a shock.
We had a brilliant e-mail conversation all morning. She said her way of coping was not talking about it at all, but that she regrets it now because it made everything a lot harder. I pointed out that, as she had heard about our problems, that I am obviously doing things differently!!
She had 5 rounds of IUI in one hospital, before changing to another, where she had her first (successful) IVF. She said the second clinic’s success rates are really high, and the whole team is fantastic, and that they really make time for you, and are very supportive.
She is off on maternity leave next week, but has given me her number and e-mail address, so if I have any questions then I can ask her.
She was so kind, she made me want to cry most of the morning. But it is nice to see a success story walking around the office.
Anyway, that is enough for now. Ovulation time soon, so I’m off to jump on Babs…who has no idea what he has in store!!
My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.
Catch up on Morayo’s story here:
- Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
- Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
- Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
- Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
- Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
- Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
- Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
- Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
- Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
- Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
- Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
- Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
- Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody
- Morayo’s Mountain 14: Confused and Confuddled
- Morayo’s Mountain 15: Another Two Week Wait
- Morayo’s Mountain 16: One More Cycle
- Morayo’s Mountain 17: Back to the Doctors
- Morayo’s Mountain 18: We’re going to beat this thing
- Morayo’s Mountain 19: Live to fight another day
- Morayo’s Mountain 20: Nightmare Mother-In-Law
- Morayo’s Mountain 21: Baby Dreaming