Morayo’s Mountain 19: Live to Fight Another Day!

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October 1st, 2009

Well, the afterglow from our getaway has worn off, and I’m fully back on earth now.

I think the whole admitting defeat and getting the referral finally hit me. My PMA has gone, and has been replaced by a very big black cloud. I have been very tired, and cry at the drop of a hat. And I haven’t even felt like having sex either. I had to force myself last night, because it’s ovulation time…that’s if I haven’t missed it already.

To be honest, I’m not even in the mood anymore…

 

October 11th, 2009

It’s been almost two weeks since I filled this diary, and I’m not really doing any better.

Our attempts this month were really half-arsed, but hopefully well timed.

I haven’t really given much thought to the 2WW either. I’ve pretty much done everything I shouldn’t have. I’ve drank far too much, eaten far too much…and mostly all the wrong things, and I haven’t taken anything easy!

Anyways!

8DPO symptoms so far; had some strange twinges and pains a couple days ago, but they have gone again now; I’ve been soooooo tired; I’ve had high temps; I’ve had tonnes of creamy CM, I’ve had sore nipples (as of this morning).

So, it’s back to the waiting game I guess. I wonder when I should test…

 

October 12th, 2009

I think I spoke too soon. I had a big temperature drop this morning, and all my symptoms have gone.

I’m cramping now…I think she is on her way early…

 

October 13th, 2009

BFN.

I also had some spotting earlier. She is definitely on her way. I feel so unbelieveably weepy today…

 

October 14th, 2009

The witch is here. Isn’t that just great!

 

October 24th, 2009

Hmm, this is very strange indeed!

I thought I had EWCM yesterday, but dismissed it because it was only CD8. This morning I had a negative OPK, but did another test just now (just had a feeling) and there is no doubting it, it is a positive. I’m going to ovulate really early this month.

It’s a bit of a bugger really. I am soooo tired and not in the mood (my libido seems to fade away as soon as that second line on the OPK gets darker!!!) Ho hum. But I don’t have a choice…I have to do what I gotta do…

 

October 26th, 2009

This is some confusing stuff!

I’m not convinced I have ovulated, but now that we’ve started, I’d best keep going until I am sure!!

I had a negative OPK Saturday morning, and what I was sure was a positive OPK on Saturday night…but by Sunday morning, it was negative again. And I had no temp drop either.

Well, we’ll just keep going, until I am 100% sure that I am past ovulation or Bab’s little guy falls off from over use. LOL!

Whatever happens first!!

 

October 28th, 2009

I’m feeling pretty ok. Yesterday I had super sonic amounts of energy which I used to do housework last night. (symptom 1 – nesting).

Today I barely have enough energy to put one foot in front of the other (symptom 2 – tiredness).

I also have sore boobs (symptom 3).

It looks pretty good, except I was drinking coffee all day yesterday, because I was bored at work (resulting in the high energy). I was awake half the night from super amounts of caffeine being poured into my body, (resulting in being tired today), and my boobs are sore because I picked up an old bra, that is two sizes too small!

So, no symptoms after all…

 

October 30th, 2009

I’m struggling through my week at work. Today, someone went on maternity leave. I’m sorry to say I’ll be glad to have her gone, as it’s been a living nightmare with all the constant baby talk!!!

My line manager asked if I would lend a hand decorating her desk yesterday. I gave her a very abrupt ‘No’, before walking off, and having a cry in the toilet.

I wish I could have done something to help, but it has been so hard to live with the mom-to-be talking nonstop about the baby. The more she went on and on and on about becoming a mum, the harder it was to ask her to tone it down a bit. But I know she is actually really sensitive, and would be horrified if she knew what her baby talk was doing to me.

Today wasn’t great…but I have to live to fight another day…

 

My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.

Photo Credits

  1. https://www.pinterest.com/kathleenfullwoo/melody-cole-artwork/
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Catch up on Morayo’s story here:

  1. Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
  2. Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
  3. Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
  4. Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
  5. Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
  6. Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
  7. Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
  8. Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
  9. Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
  10. Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
  11. Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
  12. Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
  13. Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody
  14. Morayo’s Mountain 14: Confused and Confuddled
  15. Morayo’s Mountain 15: Another Two Week Wait
  16. Morayo’s Mountain 16: One More Cycle
  17. Morayo’s Mountain 17: Back to the Doctors
  18. Morayo’s Mountain 18: We’re going to beat this thing

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