July 1st, 2009
I don’t know what is going on. My temperature has risen again today, and its 11 DPO.
I tested yesterday, and it was a BFN. Not even a hint of a line when I stood on one leg in the window, and squinted a bit. Which is fine, and exactly what I expected.
I don’t have a single symptom. Not one. But I don’t have any PMS symptoms either. In fact, I have never felt better!! If I didn’t know better, I would say the witch is over a week away yet, but she is actually due in a few days!
July 2nd, 2009
I’m not having a good day at all!
Its Babs’ birthday today, and he really couldn’t be bothered about how I’m feeling, and made arrangements to go out, because we’d already planned a big night out. But all I wanted was to just stay at home, and lick my wounds!
My temperature dropped this morning, so no more pretending. I took a test, just to be sure, and yep…another BFN.
Getting to work, I got given the most horrendous cases to process, which took forever, and I got stuck at work long after everyone else had gone home.
Babs offered to stay home if I wanted, but I didn’t want to ask him too. I wanted him to want to be at home enough to make the decision.
Alas, he decided to go anyway, leaving me alone at home…and giving me more than enough wallowing time!
July 3rd, 2009
I’m still confused about my temps. I just don’t understand how I could have a temperature rise! I did it twice, and it came out the same. Maybe my thermometer is broken?? I was too nervous to test though. AF is due tomorrow, so I’ll see what happens.
Thankfully, it is Friday. I have a nice night out to look forward to tonight, and Babs is feeling so guilty about yesterday, he is being extremely attentive. My mother-in-law called me this evening, and I complained to her about how badly Babs has been behaving lately. I know she must have called him to give him a good scolding, as it was a totally different Babs tonight. I have the best MIL in the world 😉
July 4th, 2009
I had a fantastic night out with Babs yesterday. He took me to a lovely Italian restaurant, where I ate far too much and had several glasses of wine! I also told him a few home truths, and scared the life out of him. So now, he is being super attentive. We’ll see how long that lasts!!!
It took him a while to understand why I was so upset about how he’d behaved on his birthday. Whilst I come from a family that makes a big deal about everything, his own family…well, not so much!
When we first started dating, and before the whole religion wahala started, it was his Mother’s 60th birthday, and, not thinking otherwise, I had asked Babs if he wanted me to get the balloons and banners and things for the house. He looked at me strangely and just said ok.
As we would in our family, I went mad and decorated their living room with all the 60 today things I could find. I left a cake on the table, with presents and cards, and other knick-knacks. When I was done, Babs turned around and said “Looks great. We never do things like this. I wonder what she will make of it”. I was mortified. We had only been dating a few weeks, and I had only met his parents once. But it never occurred to me that people don’t go mad on birthdays. It was all I had ever known!!!!!
Turns out, it didn’t quite go a storm, as I was apologizing for weeks afterwards. It took them ages to get all the decorations down, and they kept finding ’60’ confetti everywhere!
The best part of tonight was the make up sex!! Ooooh, been far too long since we did anything but TTC!
No AF today, but my temperature has really nosedived, and I was spotting earlier. I think she will show on Monday now. Ho hum. It makes it perfect timing for ovulation on the week we are on holiday!!
My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.
Catch up on Morayo’s story here:
- Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
- Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
- Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
- Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
- Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
- Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
- Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
- Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
- Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
- Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
- Morayo’s Mountain 11: Botched Cycle
- Morayo’s Mountain 12: Psych Myself
- Morayo’s Mountain 13: Broody