June 21st, 2009
We didn’t manage to have sex last night. Now, the line has disappeared on my OPK, so this is looking like another wasted cycle! I’m so fed up. I want to admit defeat, and give up. I just can’t see how it is ever going to happen.
I feel really really blue! And the fact that it is Fathers’ Day today isn’t helping either.
Babs and I have done nothing but fight all weekend. I know that the stress of TTC is behind it.
Maybe we should just give up and fill the house with cats…
June 24th, 2009
Some of my friends from secondary school invited me out after work, and we had a great time over drinks, and had a good laugh. I didn’t think of TTC, or the TWW, for a whole two hours!! Bliss. And we have organised lots of lunches and nights out, so I’ve got lots to look forward too. I have realized I might as well make an effort to keep my friendships, and they will help fill this vacuum in my life.
My boss approved my 1-week holiday, for the middle of July. I might make another appointment at the doctors, and see what they suggest. It’s scary though!! Because the truth is, even though we have made progress with Babs now ejaculating, he’s still not doing it inside me…so we still have a problem, insemination cups or not.
June 26th, 2009
I’ve had a chance to think about it, and I’m not sure about going to the doctors yet. I don’t feel like we have given this a proper try, especially the last couple of months. It’s been manic, and there have been so many hiccups.
I have been charting and using my OPK for three months now, so I have a much better idea of what we need to be doing, and when. Plus, next month Babs and I are actually on holiday (at home) for the week I am due to ovulate, so we will have plenty of time and energy to try it a lot more.
Not sure if I am just being a chicken about facing doctors again, or if I really believe we can do it next month.
I also don’t know why I have given up on this month. There is probably still hope. We didn’t do great with trying, but the times we managed are around the right time and my chart is looking positive (although it is only 6DPO).
June 27th, 2009
Its official. I am in the most symptomless cycle in the history of the world ever!!! But my temperature chart looks pretty though….
June 28th, 2009
I had a huge temperature drop today. I’m not really surprised, as I knew this month would be a really long shot.
Plus, my niece and nephew have been here since yesterday afternoon, and all broody feelings have left the building!!!! They are 6 and almost 3, and have the attention span of a goldfish, with the destruction power of an entire army! I’m exhausted!
My brother and his wife had to travel for a wedding yesterday, and decided that it was better if I had the kids for the night. That way, they could get really drunk and let down their hair, before being able to sleep off their hangover in peace!! I agreed, as they don’t really get out that often, and I could tell they were longing for some ‘alone time’.
But I have really struggled with them sleeping here. First of all, I keep waking up because I can hear them, and then around 2:30am I woke up and couldn’t hear them, and got into a panic in case the 3 year old had choked, or fallen off the bed. I ended up creeping about, and poking her to make sure she was in bed and alive!
Now, I’m completely shattered, and only vaguely resemble something human. My house looks like several bombs have hit it, but I can’t be bothered to do anything about it. I keep hearing how it is different when they are your own children, but not sure I want to take the risk night now!!!! LOL!
I kid, of course.
June 29th, 2009
9 DPO. No symptoms. No tests taken. No desire to test. Hmm…..
I might test in the morning, if my temperature is still up. Although in this heat it should be through the roof, regardless of all the hormones I do or don’t have floating about!!
I guess we’ll see…
My name is Morayo. I’m a TTC Warrior…and I’m far too stubborn to give up.
Catch up on Morayo’s story here:
- Morayo’s Mountain 1: TTC Warrior
- Morayo’s Mountain 2: Soul Mate
- Morayo’s Mountain 3: Grateful for the little things
- Morayo’s Mountain 4: Family Secret
- Morayo’s Mountain 5: Fed Up
- Morayo’s Mountain 6: The Weekend
- Morayos’ Mountain 7: Missing Period
- Morayo’s Mountain 8: A Problem Shared
- Morayo’s Mountain 9: Insemination Cups
- Morayo’s Mountain 10: Obsessed
- Morayo’s Mountain: Botched Cycle
- Morayo’s Mountain: Psych Myself