October 26th, 2009
I woke up at about 4.30am this morning, and spent over an hour in prayer, praise and worship. This was the perfect way to cleave once again to God, and also seek His guidance and strength in this mission of mine. But even as I prayed, I knew a weigh-in was inevitable.
I was tempted to cancel the weigh-in, especially after the disastrous few days I’d had. But I knew that if I was to be too true to myself, and my journey, it was something I had to do. And so I did…right before I got in the shower. I knew that the worst case scenario would be weight gain, instead of loss, but I secretly hoped for a best case scenario of my weight remaining the same.
I wasn’t that lucky.
103.6kg. A weight gain of almost 4kg! Almost double what I had lost last week. My brief stint of going below the 100kg mark was over as quickly as it had begun.
But nah! Not today! I am not going to succumb to that way of thinking! This is the last time I will see a plus, rather than a minus, with my weekly weight gain. I’m ready to take the bull by the horns this this time! My mission has ben fully reactivated!
October 27th, 2009
So, I’m back at it.
I decided to give the green smoothie a break this week, and try something more interesting. So, I opted for a watermelon and cucumber smoothie, with a small slice of pineapple for added zing. It was a welcome and refreshing treat, after my power-session at the gym.
Ah, yes…the gym! I’m sure my Trainer didn’t recognize the crazy, pumped up woman that showed up yesterday. With +4kg ringing in my head, all I could see was red! So I ran, jumped, climbed, squatted, and lifted…like my life depended on it. 2 hours and 25 minutes later, I drove off soaked in sweat, and full recharged for my mission.
Today, I capped my time at 2 hours, and left feeling very high on endorphins, so much so that after my smoothie, and before a shower, I went digging for a power walk DVD that JJ had gifted me some years ago, but which I had tossed after the first time trying it. This time, it didn’t seem quite so bad, and I was able to do a 2 mile (3.2km) power walk right in the comfort of my living room. But before you think it was a picnic, it wasn’t! If you think marching on the same spot is easy, try doing it for 3o minutes straight, while adding side squats, kick outs, kick backs, and lots of power arm movements.
By the time I was done, my body was screaming in pain, but I felt mega accomplished.
Because of last week’s slip up, I decided to review my plan in general, by going through some of the changes I’ve made, what I’ve learned, and plot a few more goals for the coming weeks.
I realized that I need to be even better with my meal planning. Eating healthy requires lots of planning, and I cannot allow myself get hungry. It also ensures I’m able to make wonderfully tasty and healthy food I will enjoy.
It’s early in the fitness part of my journey, and even though exercise is still a pain, I can’t deny how good it makes me feel. It’s still tough to get up and go, but the benefits far outweigh the small time commitment, and the aches and pains.
I also think I should start adding more raw vegetables into my daily routine. I probably have to do some reading on the best way to do this, and then start implementing.
I’ve also realized that women are caregivers…and it is tough for us to put ourselves first. I know with me, everything else always came first, and because I felt neglected, I would use junk food, chocolate and even alcohol to cover those feelings. But today, I have had make a pact with myself that my health and fitness will come first. And I don’t think I’m being selfish in the negative sense of the word. My husband, JJ, and even the kids, will benefit with each healthy meal and snack that comes out of my kitchen. So, I’m choosing me…for the next few weeks…at least until such a time when I have been able to settle into a good routine.
So help me God!
Catch up on Ihunna’s story here:
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 1: Grubbido
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 2: Fragile
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 3: Defiant
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 4: Progress
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 5: The Gym
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 6: Killjoy
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 7: Pain
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 8: Frenemies
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 9: Exhilarated
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 10: Popcorn
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 11: Free-fall
- Confessions of a Fat Girl 12: Sunday Morning