Confessions of a Fat Girl 99: Past…or Present Tense?

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17th April, 2010

After last night’s drama, I was in no hurry to head to Jersey too early!

After Kel’s unexpected attack, Akwaugo had initially insisted on bringing Chiemela back to the flat, to nurse his wounds. It took Chiemela and I a lot of arguing to get her to see reason. Taking her boyfriend back to her apartment was not a good idea, especially now that her ex-husband is now aware, and that her kids could soon follow suit. The only wise thing would be for her to have that conversation with her kids first, letting them know about the man in her life, before they get to see him face-to-face. When we were able to convince her about that one, it took another round of arguments to get her to go back home, as spending a night out would not help the situation either.

At about 2am, she had reluctantly left her man’s side, and all the way home, she had lamented and cursed her ex-husband, for not wanting her to enjoy this happiness she has finally found. And the lamentation continued even when we got to her apartment, with her crying over the fact that she was sure Chiemela would dump her after what had happened tonight, and with me trying to convince her that he would do no such thing.

It was no surprise that I woke up drained this morning! Getting to the kitchen, Akwaugo and her kids were making waffles and eggs for breakfast, and from the look of things, they didn’t seem aware of anything yet. But just before I left the house, Akwaugo said she’d surely tell them tonight, as she was done hiding. And I couldn’t agree more!

Even though I managed to leave the house at 1pm, I decided to roam around Manhattan first of all, before taking the train to Fair Lawn. Not only did I desperately need a bit of retail therapy, I wasn’t in a hurry to face Ogonna and her newly irrational behavior, over this Chiemela wahala.

By 3pm, after wandering through Saks, Neiman Marcus, and Macy’s, I reluctantly headed to catch my train. By 5.47pm, the taxi I took from the station, pulled up in front of Ogonna’s house. I heaved a deep sigh before knocking, and steeled myself for what lay ahead.

I was quite surprised to see her face light up when she saw me.

“Oh, Ihu! I’m so glad you’re here!!!” she said, pulling a stunned me into a hug.

“I didn’t quite expect this warm welcome!” I had to admit.

She sighed and shook her head. “I haven’t behaved well…I know….I’m so sorry!”

A part of me wanted to retort that it was Akwaugo she owed the apology, but I decided not to rock this still unstable boat.

Later that evening, as we sat in her living room, Ogonna apologized profusely for her behavior, saying she didn’t know what had come over her.

“I can’t explain it, Ihunna! Hearing about Akwaugo and Chiemela turned a screw loose in my head! It made so mad, I could barely breathe!!!”

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“But why? Ogonna, why did you have such a strong reaction?” I exclaimed, still perplexed. “I have to be honest, I find your reaction very worrisome indeed! For a woman who is meant to be getting married in a couple of weeks, your reaction made absolutely no sense at all!”

“Ihunna, but you know I loved Chiemela!” Ogonna answered.

“My question is, is it past tense…or is it still present tense?!” I asked.

“Ihunna, I actually asked myself that same question, when I got back to Jersey. I really had to dig deep to get to the root cause behind my reaction…” Ogonna admitted. “And I realized that even though I loved Chiemela…very very much…it was, and is still, nothing compared with what I have with my Ifeanyi!”

I heaved a deep sigh of relief, as I couldn’t imagine the kind of wahala there would have been if Ogonna had decided she wasn’t in love with Ifeanyi after all. Not only would there be a cancelled wedding, she would have been devastated to find out that Chiemela would never choose her over Akwaugo.

“Can I be honest with you? Do you know one of the reasons I actually let Chiemela go?” Ogonna said, after a while. “I knew I wouldn’t be able to give him children…not at my age. I didn’t want to do that to him. Ifeanyi already has kids, so I knew there would be no pressure on me.”

My heart sank, and I reached to hold her hand.

“Don’t get me wrong…that wasn’t my only reason. Ifeanyi wasn’t an after thought, or a second choice…I chose him fair and square…” she shrugged. “But I also didn’t want to hold Chiemela down.”

Neither of us said anything about the fact that Akwaugo, being only 3 years younger than Ogonna, had almost the same conception chances that she did.

“But are they happy? Is what they have real? Did you meet him? Did you speak with him?” Ogonna asked.

Settling down, I told her everything I’d been told about their love story…from how they had talked non-stop for over 20 hours as they flew from Lagos to New York, how they’d been in love by the time they’d landed, how they hadn’t immediately acted on this love out of respect for her, how they’d run into each other later, how they’d fallen deeply in love, how they’d been inseparable ever since, how Chiemela’s eyes lit up at the mere mention of her name, and how their love was indeed for real. I gave her a lot of details, as I knew she had to hear the truth…even if it was bitter.

Thankfully, it was as if hearing all the details made her understand things better, and I could see my sister warming to the idea of her other sister being in love.

“Akwaugo deserves to be happy. I thank God it’s with Chiemela!” Ogonna finally said, and I was so relieved to see she meant it.

But when I told her of how Kel had tried to spoil our evening, she had been livid, and had reigned curses on the man’s head.

And my sister and I had ended the evening, drinking Martinis, yabbing our former in-law, and talking about the man who could be our next…

 

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Catch up on Ihunna’s story here:

  1. Confessions of a Fat Girl 1: Grubbido
  2. Confessions of a Fat Girl 2: Fragile
  3. Confessions of a Fat Girl 3: Defiant
  4. Confessions of a Fat Girl 4: Progress
  5. Confessions of a Fat Girl 5: The Gym
  6. Confessions of a Fat Girl 6: Killjoy
  7. Confessions of a Fat Girl 7: Pain
  8. Confessions of a Fat Girl 8: Frenemies
  9. Confessions of a Fat Girl 9: Exhilarated
  10. Confessions of a Fat Girl 10: Popcorn
  11. Confessions of a Fat Girl 11: Free-fall
  12. Confessions of a Fat Girl 12: Sunday Morning
  13. Confessions of a Fat Girl 13: Mission Reactivated
  14. Confessions of a Fat Girl 14: New Things
  15. Confessions of a Fat Girl 15: Bad Business
  16. Confessions of a Fat Girl 16: Luxury Items
  17. Confessions of a Fat Girl 17: The Solution
  18. Confessions of a Fat Girl 18: Magic Formula
  19. Confessions of a Fat Girl 19: Date Night
  20. Confessions of a Fat Girl 20: Quinoa
  21. Confessions of a Fat Girl 21: Perfect Fit
  22. Confessions of a Fat Girl 22: Keeping In Touch
  23. Confessions of a Fat Girl 23: Delete
  24. Confessions of a Fat Girl 24: Philosophical
  25. Confessions of a Fat Girl 25: Keep it Moving
  26. Confessions of a Fat Girl 26: My Co-Wife
  27. Confessions of a Fat Girl 27: Old Jeans & Old Friends
  28. Confessions of a Fat Girl 28: Prawn Stir Fry
  29. Confessions of a Fat Girl 29: Facebook Tagging
  30. Confessions of a Fat Girl 30: Detox Part 2
  31. Confessions of a Fat Girl 31: Abs & Crunches
  32. Confessions of a Fat Girl 32: Making Notes
  33. Confessions of a Fat Girl 33: Christmas Party
  34. Confessions of a Fat Girl 34: Ashiedu
  35. Confessions of a Fat Girl 35: Willpower
  36. Confessions of a Fat Girl 36: Packing…and TV
  37. Confessions of a Fat Girl 37: Last Minute
  38. Confessions of a Fat Girl 38: Body Image
  39. Confessions of a Fat Girl 39: Christmas Trip
  40. Confessions of a Fat Girl 40: Christmas in the Village
  41. Confessions of a Fat Girl 41: Daddy’s Girl
  42. Confessions of a Fat Girl 42: 2010
  43. Confessions of a Fat Girl 43: Uzoamaka
  44. Confessions of a Fat Girl 44: Sugar Binge
  45. Confessions of a Fat Girl 45: The E-mail
  46. Confessions of a Fat Girl 46: She whose name must not be repeated
  47. Confessions of a Fat Girl 47: Smokescreen
  48. Confessions of a Fat Girl 48: Running away
  49. Confessions of a Fat Girl 49: Fry-Up
  50. Confessions of a Fat Girl 50: The Only Solution
  51. Confessions of a Fat Girl 51: The Intervention
  52. Confessions of a Fat Girl 52: Tri-State Sisters
  53. Confessions of a Fat Girl 53: Manhattan
  54. Confessions of a Fat Girl 54: Daddy’s Girls
  55. Confessions of a Fat Girl 55: Stunned Silence
  56. Confessions of a Fat Girl 56: Bereavement
  57. Confessions of a Fat Girl 57: The Reconciliation
  58. Confessions of a Fat Girl 58: Staying Back
  59. Confessions of a Fat Girl 59: Friends & Marriage Proposals
  60. Confessions of a Fat Girl 60: Colourful and Happy
  61. Confessions of a Fat Girl 61: Sweet Potato & Chicken Salad
  62. Confessions of a Fat Girl 62: Miss Amerikana
  63. Confessions of a Fat Girl 63: Tragi-Romantic
  64. Confessions of a Fat Girl 64: Dead to me
  65. Confessions of a Fat Girl 65: Love Triangle
  66. Confessions of a Fat Girl 66: Forever my lady
  67. Confessions of a Fat Girl 67: Fight to the death
  68. Confessions of a Fat Girl 68: Hard choice to make
  69. Confessions of a Fat Girl 69: Back to reality
  70. Confessions of a Fat Girl 70: Life Reflections
  71. Confessions of a Fat Girl 71: Oatmeal, Blueberry & Banana Pancakes
  72. Confessions of a Fat Girl 72: The Engagement
  73. Confessions of a Fat Girl 73: Pillow Talk
  74. Confessions of a Fat Girl 74: Secretive Sister
  75. Confessions of a Fat Girl 75: Homemade Soup
  76. Confessions of a Fat Girl 76: Nna Men!
  77. Confessions of a Fat Girl 77: Comfort Food…Healthy Food
  78. Confessions of a Fat Girl 78: Miracle Working God
  79. Confessions of a Fat Girl 79: Lumps, Bumps and Jiggles
  80. Confessions of a Fat Girl 80: Oyibo Boyfriend
  81. Confessions of a Fat Girl 81: Wedding Gowns 
  82. Confessions of a Fat Girl 82: My New Friend
  83. Confessions of a Fat Girl 83: Emotional vs Physical Hunger
  84. Confessions of a Fat Girl 84: Look like an Mgbeke
  85. Confessions of a Fat Girl 85: Food Cravings
  86. Confessions of a Fat Girl 86: Who am I?
  87. Confessions of a Fat Girl 87: Separation, Counselling…Divorce
  88. Confessions of a Fat Girl 88: A Man’s World
  89. Confessions of a Fat Girl 89: Envy, Weight and Love!
  90. Confessions of a Fat Girl 90: Regret
  91. Confessions of a Fat Girl 91: Time to move on
  92. Confessions of a Fat Girl 92: Have some fruit!
  93. Confessions of a Fat Girl 93: Family Easter
  94. Confessions of a Fat Girl 94: Sister Reunion
  95. Confessions of a Fat Girl 95: Perfect Fit; Perfect Surprise
  96. Confessions of a Fat Girl 96: The Love Story
  97. Confessions of a Fat Girl 97: Caught in the middle
  98. Confessions of a Fat Girl 98: Kisses…and Blood

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