Tayo’s Infertility Diary 73: Vivid Dreams

December 28, 2008

Well, I went swimming again today, but I had to eat two chocolates before i could force myself out the door and to the pool! I am sooooo knackered, it’s unbelievable!

I was reading my new book late, and I had a nightmare where I told Javier I was in a mood with him, because he was unfaithful in my dream (he slept with my former Polish roommate, for 8 euros!). He thought I said he could, because his brother did and his wife didn’t mind. I left him and went to beat her up! I woke up in daze, not wondering where the heck that kind of a weird and wacky dream would have come from!

 

December 29, 2008

CD20, 5DPO

I had another dream last night – again not a particularly nice one, but not a nightmare. I normally don’t sleep well the few days before AF arrives, and I have night sweats and bad dreams. Although I had the dream, I feel so much better today after last night’s outrageous one!

So symptoms to watch: some twitches to the side of my left boob? Apart from that, that’s all folks! But it’s early days.

Jav asked if I had any symptoms last night – bless! I said there are still about 10days to go and he said ‘Well, not if the spotting arrives only about 4 or 5 days!’. It is surprising how much they take in without you realising!

Anyhoo, we got a £20 M+S voucher off his Grandad, so we are going to go and get two of those meals with wine for £10 – how exciting New Years Eve will be! LOL! I know lots of people who don’t drink in the 2WW, and I never used to before…but I do now if I want. I don’t have a lot though, and I always think I’m not pregnant anyway!

 

December 30, 2008

Because I’m oh-so-realistic, even though I’m in my 2ww, I’ve been looking at fertility clinics nearby, just in case we need to run any more tests. But it just makes me angry that I have to pay for these tests!!!

There are other doctors at the practice near us, but the doctor we use showed me their instructions from Hertsmere PCT, about no funding for fertility tests, including primary ones. He advised we write to the PCT, but I could tell his underlying message was that until the new financial year starts in April, there won’t be any changes.

I’m very angry about it, and would normally be writing to everyone until I get some satisfaction, but I think I’m giving nature it’s last chance for a couple more cycles, and because we are trying to move, I am going to start with a new doctor in our new neighborhood. Hopefully, I’ll get some joy, or we will go private soon.

I just hope it doesn’t come to that!

 

December 31, 2008

7DPO

I think my dreams are just because I have a lot on my mind. I would love it to be because I am preggo though! I think my boobs are a bit bigger, but not tender or sore at all. A few twitches in my left boob and even my abdomen yesterday, but that’s it. Nothing else really…but I know it’s early days. If no BFP this cycle, I have one last cycle before we go for the big guns!

It doesn’t feel like New Year’s Eve today. Jav and I have absolutely nothing planned to ring in the New Year. But even with no grand plans, we’re very excited about what the year has in store for us. We started 2008 with a pregnancy, which unfortunately ended in miscarriage. God willing, we will get pregnant very shortly, and welcome our baby this coming year.

As we had no plans, I decided to turn in early, and just as I hopped into bed beside Jav, in my most comfortable but unsexy pajamas ever, my phone buzzed with a text message from Solape. My heart crashed upon seeing her name, regretting why I hadn’t had the courage to take my goddaughter’s gift to her personally, instead of mailing it, like I’d done last week.

But I was in for a shock.

I have read all the text messages between yourself and Ugo. Of all the people I thought would betray me, you were the last one I could have ever imagined would. You are dead to me!

My heart literally stopped pumping blood in my body, as I read and reread the message, wondering what kind of incriminating rubbish Ugo would have left on his phone.

I’m finished!

 

 

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Catch up on Tayo’s Diary here:

  1. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 1: The Beginning
  2. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 2: Little Drops…Big Drops
  3. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 3: Time Keeper
  4. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 4: Don’t Faint; Don’t Look
  5. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 5: The Afterglow
  6. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 6: Irony
  7. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 7: Adulterer
  8. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 8: Catch 22
  9. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 9: Sister Sister
  10. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 10: Goose Bumps
  11. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 11: Gold Digger
  12. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 12: Peak
  13. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 13: Road Trip
  14. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 14: Emotional
  15. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 15: Awful Mess
  16. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 16: Pink Dresses
  17. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 17: My Love
  18. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 18: Summer
  19. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 19: Mindset
  20. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 20: High Street
  21. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 21: Bored, Fat, Sad!
  22. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 22: Lessons Learnt
  23. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 23: The Dress versus the T-Shirt
  24. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 24: The Hen Night
  25. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 25: Minding my business
  26. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 26: Notice
  27. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 27: Spotting & Shopping
  28. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 28: Messing about
  29. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 29: Wedding in Tuscany
  30. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 30: Lucy Girl!
  31. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 32: The Rescue Plan
  32. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 33: Active Imagination
  33. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 34: Covered Bases
  34. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 35: Homecoming
  35. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 36: House Arrest
  36. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 37: Perfect Stranger
  37. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 38: Evil Genius
  38. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 39: Busy People
  39. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 40: Voltron Moves
  40. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 41: Swinging like a Pendulum
  41. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 42: Back Home
  42. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 43: Kinky Boo
  43. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 44: Divorce is not my portion!
  44. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 45: Get thee behind me
  45. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 46: Different Strokes
  46. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 47: How Far?
  47. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 48: The Pressure
  48. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 49: Yankee Virgin
  49. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 50: Sexy Mama
  50. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 51: the Big 40!
  51. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 52: Wait and see
  52. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 53: Life is too short!
  53. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 54: Work something out
  54. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 55: Hello, Godmother!
  55. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 56: A Beautiful Thing
  56. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 57: Raging Demands
  57. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 58: On the Rebound
  58. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 59: Limbo
  59. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 60: Messed Up
  60. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 61: Penny Drop
  61. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 62: Robbed
  62. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 63: The other side of me
  63. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 64: Mama Drama
  64. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 65: Unfair
  65. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 66: Deny the chemistry
  66. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 67: Not that kind of guy
  67. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 68: Naija Pampering
  68. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 69: Pimped
  69. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 70: I dream of the Maldives
  70. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 71: Stress Level
  71. Tayo’s Infertility Diary 72: Christmas

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